sunday cry

get bonus today(not much),quite happy
but announced that ned to pay rm 1k to taiwan,
abit frustrated,how?
the matter for me is need to pay rm1k,
even not immediately,but at the end,
in balance sheet,rm1k is there.hehehe...
a bit painful in heart.how?

actually i wish to go,
i know many things can earn from there,
that's cant value. but for a student,haiz..
contradicting now..
if dis time dun go,i dunno when can cum,
mayb can say that, next time got chance,
but it's possible, not absolute.

my parent dunno about it,
i told them b4 is rm600,
they ady said need to perform still need to pay?
how dare am i to tell them is rm 1k.

i wish to cry, bcoz cant and not dare to share with them,
scare scold, and in future, i worry that they dislike i join,
for old thinking person or realistic, sure think like that,
for me, i know i can earn money to taiwan,
but that is future.
but this is different, i really wish to join the festival,
at the end, i dun wish to pay so much money even separately,
but i wish to go...wish wish wish...sad.sad.sad.