just a treat

atually who am i for u?
juz treat u also cant?
i know u r not my wife,but treat gf doesnt mean wat wad..
i juz feel 12 treat u..bcoz u r my dearest...in my heart.

some of their bf treat his gf and still 12 count with his gf..
and their gf complained that how cum this bf like this 1...
but me?

whe i was treated u, juz a dinner or lunch...
and u paid me back..u know wat i feel?
i'm ur bf..u treat as who?

i wasnt demand u pay me bek..

dunno la...
i know wat u r going to say..
u will say i no need treat u,u r not my wife..
no need like "support" u.

but this is not support u..
haiz...it's sad u know?'

but nvm, i understood why u did that..

chance (s) and sadness...my wrong

今天，
心情不太好，
那种酸的感觉很久没拜访我了，
好像重复几年前的那种感觉。

其实人应该把握机会，这是众所周知的，
但有谁正真的懂机会来了，又有谁懂几时走呢？
其实，你说要的话，我一定会留下，不需要顾虑太多，
一旦走了，很难回去，甚至不会。

你说：“事实怕什么人讲".
真的吗？

我只是说出我的感觉，没什么的，是，我不想，但我没阻止。
我以后也会说那么多。如果换过来，我会认为你是多么的爱我。
有谁不想跟自己喜欢的人多时间一起？
有谁不想跟自己喜欢的人见面多一点？
我只是说出我的感觉，既然是让你那么烦，我以后也不会讲。

也许我要求一段完美的路，但那条路不是我行我速。
你注重的是行动，我注重的是心意。

也许我该知足。
幸福，可以比较吗?我认为不可以。要怎样比呢？
我只是羡慕某些东西，我没有怨天怨地。

我的善忘不是我的错，最近太多东西要去想了，
要去记，不是我不负责任。

是我太注重你吗？还是我太过于担心？
或者太过于爱你?
你说你只是我的女朋友。。。有问题吗？


other thing....

i so happy 2day,
i went to submited application form of leave,
when the staff saw the letter, he so suprised,
and did the movement of strike drum, hehe...
so funny..and asked me must go and shaked hand with me..
he said that he know "hands"
wow...so suprised,i thought tarc only know tarc..hehe
he helped me alot to applied the leave, and teached me how to apply effectively.

台湾之旅前

一个星期练四天
每天只睡三四个种
身体头脑精神快死掉了。

但值得的。
"我明天要早一个小时起身努力读书"。
练习时蛮享受的。

我想我已经找到另一个自己了。
打算好了。
实行还需要一段时间。

拍掌

别人已不想与你拍掌，你怎么拍也拍不出声音。
所以，一个手掌是拍不出声音的。
别那么执著，呼吸一下。

rojak

finally..few week..always busy for did revision, perform and pratice..

need to find work..for 1 week

actually is relax..but.. nvm
it's valuable..

after this few weeks..
i found that a couple stay 2gether is not easy..
is a technique..

in a couple, no wrong or right,
just should or not..
everybody has thier own thinking,
based on different thinking,
different background,
different knowledge,
different education,
how they stay 2gether?

it is not easy..

为了？？？

吵。
为何每天都吵？
出去又吵，
买东西又吵，
休息又吵，
吃东西又吵，
到底为了什么？

不爽。
这样又不爽，
那样又不爽，
出去又不爽，
买东西又不爽，
休息又不爽，
吃东西又不爽，
到底为了什么？

最初的那个原因呢？
为了什么？
何必呢？
找到了吗？
为了什么？
有意义吗？
为了什么？

不懂，
还是不懂。

realistic

as a result, i ady decided to go taiwan.
bcoz i believed that this travel will open my mind much more,
i dislike to lost this chance.
i'm not going to play,
i wish and like to explore,
i like challenging,
i like unstable life,
i like unrealistic life,
bcoz there no realistic person in the world.

as frankly, everytime i practice or perform,
i know what am i doing, i enjoy it...
i will graduate soon,next year...
dunno how is the life,wish to know but scare to know,
how?
i scare cant perform and practice because of job..
but i cant too selfish.
i know what for i studying this course,
i think due to the exam recently, life so suffer,
after perform or practice, went bek home need to facing the realistic,
accept the realistic...

i remembered that my exercise teacher asked me....
"dun u feel uncomfortable and suffer due to this 2 different life"...
i answered him still ok...can manage it...
but now, i understand what he mentioned,
but i'm still managing...mayb i too greedy.
but i know this greedy will make me grow..