sunday cry

get bonus today(not much),quite happy
but announced that ned to pay rm 1k to taiwan,
abit frustrated,how?
the matter for me is need to pay rm1k,
even not immediately,but at the end,
in balance sheet,rm1k is there.hehehe...
a bit painful in heart.how?

actually i wish to go,
i know many things can earn from there,
that's cant value. but for a student,haiz..
contradicting now..
if dis time dun go,i dunno when can cum,
mayb can say that, next time got chance,
but it's possible, not absolute.

my parent dunno about it,
i told them b4 is rm600,
they ady said need to perform still need to pay?
how dare am i to tell them is rm 1k.

i wish to cry, bcoz cant and not dare to share with them,
scare scold, and in future, i worry that they dislike i join,
for old thinking person or realistic, sure think like that,
for me, i know i can earn money to taiwan,
but that is future.
but this is different, i really wish to join the festival,
at the end, i dun wish to pay so much money even separately,
but i wish to go...wish wish wish...sad.sad.sad.

unforgetable birthday无法忘记的生日

生日刚过，
惊喜得不是很惊喜，
不是很惊喜可说很惊喜，
哈哈。
其实是蛮多惊喜的，
真的出乎我意料，
她，没有通知之下出现在我的面前，
她，没有通知之下关上灯光，
她，充满笑容捧着蛋糕唱生日歌，
她，慢慢地走向我面前，
我，毫无准备地接受惊喜，
我，无话可说地，根本不知说什么好的，
我，没有预料之下收到很重的礼物，
我真的很感谢她为我所做的一切，
我真的好感动。
真的真的好感动。

给爸妈的，
很感谢你们养了我21年，
很感谢你们把我带来这个世界，
很感谢你们给我的一切，一切。
很感谢你们的体谅，包容与了解。

给教练与二团，
教练（圣雄）谢谢你的教导，一直以来的提拔。
monager，谢谢你的惊喜，与一直以来的疼爱。

二团兄弟们，

我真的很感谢你们的蛋糕，

感谢你们的生日歌，虽然过后还要抹地。

我是不会介意的。哈哈哈哈哈

其实一直以来，我并不重视我自己的生日，

妈妈说要帮我弄生日会，可是我不想。

因为很麻烦，而且重要的不是我，是我爸妈。

可是今年，跟以往都不一样。

亲爱的给的礼物太重了，我真的很过意不去。

已经21岁了，太多东西需要快点完成。

我觉得我不是那么好运的人，

希望21过后，运气不会那么。。。。

expressing feeling

now is 4.15am
don't know why,
feel like many things happen recently,
but, think again..seem like ntg..

ex member yuhua team's problem,
24 seasons drum's founder(陈徽崇老师）
hands' new piece(but passed ady)
relationship （no problem now)
parent (no at all)

陈徽崇老师,may be many students din heard this name or even din saw this real people at all,

but as a 24 seasons drum player should be know wad,i remembered that day i saw someone to

make the paper bird, and asked him noe this guy, he told that he dunno...

i'm not upset of the dead of 陈徽崇老师, but at least should be know.

for ex member yuhua team, i felt watever u all said is good, but i cant see it in most of the time.

dunno, may b this is urs style, sometimes that is no point for me to go practice, not i 12 said

bullshit, wat i expect is huge different with wat i see..

i juz expressed out my feeling..

sometimes, i understand 1 word can let any1 hav many view or thinking, but since i din said that kind of thing, pls dun tell other that i hav said that, pls..u r not kid.."i nv mention 1 u leave the team, juz make sure"...

exam is coming,this whole sem, juz busy for assignment and practice...12 start revision now, dunno where to start, nightmire